Mahal Kita Kulupeng! :D

Hi my Everything, I miss you badly. I miss the days and nights of being with you. I miss your hugs and kisses, I miss your love, and I miss your smiles and laughs, I miss everything that we’ve been shared as one; eating with one plate, happy living life with each other, our good and bad times together, and those things that made our relationship sturdy and well-built. Isn’t it happy when your hear people says that they want to be like us, that they want to have a strong relationship like we have.  But every human being has no contentment in life, and that is the reason why we came to this point. To the point that we (almost) don’t want to see each other because we don’t want to feel the absence of one another. To the point that when you fall no one is there to help you stand, and when you run through the trials of life there’s no one to hold your hands and cheer you up. I keep on asking myself why? Why do you have to do all those shit to me? Why her? I mean the kind of person she is, I’m not degrading her but I know I’m (almost) better than her, than she is, than she was, than she will be.  Am I not enough? Does she love you more than I do? What does she gave you? Is she prettier than me? I know I’ am better than her, in many aspects of life but then she won, and you’re the prize. And the better one is now a big loser. But after all those things, I still love you and until now, I’m holding on to something that one day our love for each other will come back, knowing that it won’t. However, I’m still wishing and hoping and longing for the time, when we can be together again. I believe our love will find a way… ;)

A friend or an enemy

Friend…

-          The one who is not hostile.

-          The one who supports you in everything you do.

-          The one who’s there when you are down.

-          The one who’s there when you are in the hardest part of your life.

-          The one who never leaves you.

Enemy…

-          The one who is hostile.

-          The one who always try to ruin you.

-          The one who’s envy when you’re winning.

-          The one who always try to pull you down.

-          The one who laughs at you when you’re sad.

So now, who are you? Kaibigan o kaaway? Sabi mo mag kakaibigan tayo, sabi mo nandyan ka lang palagi kapag kailangan ka namin, sabi mo maasahan ka namin sa maraming bagay. Bakit sabi nila hindi mo raw kami gusto? Sinisiraan mo daw kami sakanila. Sino yung totoo? Ikaw o sila?

Nung una palang kitang nakita alam kong hindi mag kakasundo yung mga ugali natin. But then I still tried to be nice to you, to be a good friend to you or I rather say to be a good stranger to you. Alam ko naman mabait ka, mabait ka kapag kasama mo kami, mabait ka kapag ikaw wala kang kasama, mabait ka kapag may kailangan ka. Ang bait mo kaya, kasi pati yung pwede mong ituring na mga tunay mong kaibigan sinisiraan mo pa sa iba. Yung tipong may masabi ka lang sa ibang tao handa kang siraan yung kaibigan mo, yung bang may mapag usapan lang kayo sasabihin mo lahat kahit yung mga sikretong ipinag katiwala sayo. Kung sabagay kung ako nga na malapit sayo nagawa mo yun eh, ano pa sa kaibigan ko diba? Ano pa at hindi mo sya pwedeng tawagin na divider at mang aagaw ng kaibigan. Pero kung ako yung tinutukoy mong inagaw nya na kaibigan, wag kang mag alala hindi tayo mag kaibigan, at kung naging man tapos na yun. Napaka rami mo ng pag kakamaling nagawa saakin, saamin para ipag patuloy pa natin tong pag kakaibigan na to. Sayang… sayang yung mga chances na binigay namin sayo para mag bago ka, para baguhin mo yung maling nakaugalian mo. Alam ko wala kaming karapatan na maging ganito, pero sana alam mo rin na wala kang karapatan na gawin yung mga ganitong bagay saamin.

Kaibigan ka ba talaga? Kasi kapag nag kakamali kami sa mga ginagawa namin natutuwa ka, kapag may na gagalit samin o may tao na hindi naming gusto, sinusulsulan mo pa kami na mas lalong magalit. Bakit kakumpitensya yung tingin mo saamin kapag may exam? Bakit kapag kailangan namin ng tulong mo hindi ka pwede? Bakit sinisiraan mo kami sa ibang tao? Bakit kapag may problema ka saamin sa iba pa namin dapat malaman? Diba dapat sayo, kasi mag kaibigan naman tayo. Are you a friend or an enemy? I’M SORRY. And Please don’t hate us because we’re better than you, just hate yourself because you’re not good like us.

In today’s world it is very hard to find true friends that who will stay with you when you are in need and who we can completely hang on. Even we find such friends, it is still very difficult to keep them close to us. but you guys are the special gifts that GOD gave me. I thank you for always being there for me whenever I need a true friend. I would not have been able to get out in the most difficult times of my life, if you were not there with me providing love, care and support. and I am so thankful for that and thank you for creating a unique distinction in my life. I love you Marla Charisse Santos and Prudensio Carlo Ravago. You're such a great friends! ;)

Happy Bithday boyfriend forever. ;)

Hi Daddy, Happy 91st Birthday to you! I know you're still with me, I know you're still looking at me and i know you are trying to take care of me every single moment of my life. How are you there? I really really miss you, I want to see you now and hug you tight. :'( 

I'm always thinking of you... i'm longing for you every minute of my day, but all I have is you memories. Your memories that i will keep for the rest of my life, the memories that i will use to strengthen me and to face all my fears. I love daddy. Sana magkita tayo uli kahit po sa panaginip ko lang po. Mahal na mahal na mahal kita! Happy Birthday daddy! I love you and I will always do.

 Ganito kasi yun... 
First day of school ( s.y 2010 -2011) Second year na ako tapos freshmen sya, nag lalakad lang kami ng mga kaibigan ko tapos nakita ko sya. Cute sya. pero hindi ko naman pinansin na cute sya, naisip ko lang...


Araw araw nakikita ko sya, at yung feeling na ang saya ko kapag nakikita ko sya. tapos smiling face pa sya. Second semister nun, sumali sya sa theater group namin sa school, grabe... ang cute nya. :"> Tapos February 2011 may play kami pero mag kapatid kami sa play na yun. Yung set up, mag katabi kami tapos may mga lines na para saaming dalawa lang. Mygaaad. Hindi ako makapag concentrate, kinikilig talaga ako at sabi nung bestfriend ko sobrang pula ko na daw talaga. Ang hirap huminga, alam mo yun???


Pagkatapos ng play namin nag palitan kami ng number. :"> feeling ko naman crush niya din ako, pero syempre member sya ng group kaya ayunnag palitan kami. Tapos yung mga sumunod na araw nagkatext na kami ang sweet nya lang katext at ang bait bait pa. Alam mo hanggang ngayon hindi nag babago yung pakiramdam ko na sa tuwing mag kakasalubong kami at ngingitian nya ako gumuguho yung mundo ko at parang tumitigil yung oras ko. Yung bang pag lampas nya nag tatalon ako sa tuwa. Pero kasi ngayon nalaman nya na na crush ko sya. :"( Hindi na sya nag tetext, kahit group message tapos pag nag kikita kami hindi narin kami nag papansinan. Bakit ganon??? Nakakalungkot lang kasi ang tagal tagal na tapos biglang ganito lang... 

My heart has a mind of its own

People try and tell me that it’s crazy you and I were never meant to be. I don’t believe they know and even if it’s so I’m fallen’ anyway no matter what they say. A part of me was taking me by the hand the world can’t see still they can’t understand why they can’t understand… My heart has a mind of its own right or wrong it’s gonna do only what it feel is true I’ll follow it where ever it goes anywhere it leads me to my heart has a mind of its own. Maybe we will always be together maybe it’ll last a thousand years ain’t know body knows, and even if they did it wouldn't matter now I’d love you anyhow. A part of me was taking me by the hand the world can’t see still they can’t understand why they can’t understand… My heart has a mind of its own right or wrong it’s gonna do only what it feel is true I’ll follow it where ever it goes anywhere it leads me to my heart has a mind of its own. My heart know what I needing my heart knows what I’m feeling it knows me better that I know myself my heart knows what I’m missing all I have to do is listen and listen well.