Happy New Year

Days run rapidly…

We’re now here at 2011,

New Year, New life, New Hope

New Year has always been a time for looking back to the past, and more importantly, forward to the coming year. It's a time to reflect on the changes we want/need, to make and resolve to follow through on those changes.

New Year is the great time for us to change to have new life and new plans. Today is also the right time for us to give and share love, forget all the angers of the past year and start something new for the coming year, somehow difficult but we really to do to start again.

New Year is really in the air, and no one can ever stop that… even you or me or even the strongest person in the world. We can’t stop the time from running but we can do something to have a wonderful new year. Maybe at this time of year, many of us are thinking about making New Year's Resolutions to change things that haven't been working for us for in a long while. What about you? Have you made a list of the ways in which you’d like to change your behavior and the choices you make each day?

Here is my New Year’s Resolution…

• Think Positive

To succeed, you must believe in yourself. A positive mind gives happiness, joy, health and a successful outcome of every situation and action. Whatever the mind expects, it finds. Always think positively.

“I CAN do it, and I WILL do it! Starting today!

I know I can do all things through God who strengthen me.

• Avoid Laziness

To succeed, you must be energetic. I will avoid laziness and I will focus myself on my studies, and I will let myself to get busy to important things.

• Learn something New

I want to learn new things and share it to others…

• Be a good person

A good person produces good things from the treasury of a good heart. I know that I’m already a good person, but I want to bring out the best in me, I wanna to help those people who need my help.

I want many things for this coming year; I want to start something new, New Year, new life.

An hour from now its 2011 and I’m ready. Goodbye 2010, thanks for all the memories, for the friendship and for the love you brings. I’m gonna miss you. 2011, Welcome! I’m hoping for a prosperous and healthy life.

Happy New Year to all of you! Have a great year ahead. Godspeed.

i'm old...

 

It’s finally my birthday. I’m 18 which means, absolutely nothing. This will hopefully become a great way for me to keep track of what I’ve been doing, and hopefully reminding me of tasks I want to and should be working on.

I do need to keep in mind though, that this is written for me, when my mind is worse than it is now. Then I know I’ll enjoy having such a great record of my life from age 18 on. I need to keep this style. But still I can’t believe that I’m now 18. I’m now at the right age to do serious things, I really have to be mature, I have to think more mature than what I’ve did before. More plans, more responsibilities. But it’s okay… I’m in the legal age… so it means I can do all things that I want.

I’m so happy today... and I never felt this way before. I really had a great time with my family and friends. Perhaps this is the right time for me to express my gratitude to each of them, to my family thank you for all the things that you have than to me. I really appreciate all those things. To my Friends, thank you for coming! Haha. Thanks for being nice to me. I’m so happy to have friends like you. I thank God that he gives me a thoughtful and devoted Family and Friends. Thank you. I’m so happy. And I never felt this way before I swear this is true and I owe it all to you.

Maybe it’s up to this, I do not plan for this to be looked at by others; in fact if you do read this, then you will probably be bored to tears at the meaningless drive I’ll spew out in my free time. However, by all means feel free to browse around as you see fit, I wouldn’t make it public if I didn’t want some people looking at it.

 That’s about it for my entry, short, and I think quite a bit off topic. Maybe this will be a good outlet for working on my writing skills.

Thank you!

-Carla Camille-

My Christmas Special

 

It is so hard to believe that Saturday is Christmas Day. Time not only goes fast these days. For me, it goes with warp speed.

Christmas is the celebration of the birth of Christ, the king of all kings. Christ is the center of Christianity, He is our savior. He gives his own life for us to be saved. And we are now celebrating his birthday.

The Christmas Eve glow that I feel each year is becoming more and more prominent each day we move closer now. I may be a sap but I TRULY wish for peace on Earth and good will to all men; though I know this is probably something all of us want.

Christmas is a great time of giving and sharing. Now I’m with my family, and we will celebrate our Christmas together. 10 minutes to go its Christmas. I’m thinking what I will receive later. I’m so excited and I just can’t hide it. I want new clothes and gadgets…but it doesn’t matter whether I get the gifts that I want. What’s essential is that we get to spend Christmas with our family and the people we love, that’s the true spirit of Christmas. But, it seems that there’s still something missing in me… I still remember the day when my father passed away; 17 years ago… he died of cancer, there I was in the hospital being innocent and all of what was happening. My mom and family were in the midst of losing my dad and I didn’t know anything at that time. It was Christmas Eve when my dad died. Sad. * I wanna spend my Christmas with him, I really miss him…

Today is now and it is Christmas week. Perhaps I can put the ghost or ghosts of the past by the wayside for now and just concentrate on our newborn king, the lord of lords and the priest of priests, Jesus. I believe He was 100 percent human at one time and though there is nothing to tell us if He feared the past or future, I like to think that even He wrestled with uncertainty and fear.

Perhaps If I just keep my eyes on Him, everything will be just fine. 


-Carla Camille-

 

To Jesus,

Hi there, Happy Birthday. 

I just wanna say thank you for all the things that you have given to me. Thank you for giving me another special day and year to live, and for the chance to continue my journey. Thank God for making me strong. Thanks to my Family and Friends, they’re one of the best gifts that I have received from you, and I’m so lucky to have them in my life. I’m so grateful to have a friend who’s very close to my heart. I’m so thankful for them; they’re treating me as their own family. And I love this feeling; I really love the way how they treat me. It feels like I’m part of that family. I’m so thankful for that.

Thank you…

-Carla Camille-

To Santa,

Hi Santa, How are you?

Yule tide season is in the air, is my gift ready?

All I really want to receive from you this Christmas is luxury car, but I know it’s too impossible. That’s why I’ll ask you to give me a wonderful gift that I wouldn’t forget for the rest of my life. That’s all I want. Then you Santa, I’ll wait for you…

-Carla Camille-

To Mama and Kuya,

I love you and thank you. That’s all I can say…

To mama, thank you for your unselfish love to us. If somebody asks me how I will describe you in one word, I will immediately say ‘STRONG.’  You know why? Simply because you are so brave everytime. And you won’t let problems to ruin us. Thanks mama for being strong. That’s one of your characteristic I really love the most. I really love you ma.

To kuya, Hey you, thankyou. You’re so nice to me. I love the way how we treat each other. Though they don’t see it good, I know that is our way to show our love to each other. Thank you Kuya, I really Love you.

I’m willing to do everything for you guys! 

- Carla Camille-

To papa, 

How are you there?

Next week I’m 18. I want to see you. But I know it’s too impossible. I know that there is something more important that you really have to accomplish. I have many things that I really want to say/share to you. Sometimes I can’t control myself to get envy to my classmates who have fathers in our graduation. I also wanna hang out with you, spend times with you. But what shall I do? You’re not here. I wanna hear you calling me anak. So sad. Anyaway, I just wanna greet you Merry Christmas. I love you papa. J




P.S:
I wish you we're here on my birthday! I love you...

-Carla Camille-

To Tita Nancy,

Hi, wazup?

What I really want for Christmas is to know that you’re well and you’re living the kind of life that brings you contentment and joy. That your burden is not too heavy, that all the people in corner of the world know how lucky are they to know you and to be with you. 

That at the end of the day you feel peace and at the beginning you feel loved. 

Thank you for everything! I really love you…

-Carla Camille-

To Masura,

Hello there.

How are you?

Do you still remember our first Christmas together? Our first date and our first I love you?

I still remember how natural it felt to start out side by side. How comfortable we we’re. No matter what was happening in the crazy world around us. I knew I had found a companion for the journey ahead. Someone who would stay beside me. No matter how the round turned or where it took us.

More years that I can believe have slipped by us, but I still feel the same way and how as I did then like anything in this whole wide world is possible. I know we can count on to each other. And I wanna go on sharing this journey with you. Though I know that all of these have ending…

Anyway, Yule tide season is in the air. Is my gift ready? If not yet, well you really have to be ready. But if you’ll gonna ask me what I want for Christmas, I would say SLIPPERS because I wanna walk with you. Haha. 

‘Til here. Merry Christmas to you and to your Family.

-Carla Camille-

To a family who’s very close to me,

Hi, I just wanna greet you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

And I wanna thank each of you for the love that you have given to me. To papa pogi and tita Edith, you’re such a good parents to me. Thank you for treating me as your own daughter. I really feel the warmth welcome everytime I’m in your house. I feel so comfortable and cherish everytime you call me “anak”. I never expect that you will treat me like this.  And I thank God for giving me you. I love you both. And to Ghie, Gen, Gerwin I also wanna thank you guys for treating me as your own ate, I’m so grateful everytime we we’re together. I’m so blessed to have you guys, you know why? I really want to have younger siblings and God gave me the three of you. I’m asking for one but he gives me three. OHA. I’m so happy to I have all of you. I really love you guys. I will never forget that one day in my life I met a family who’s very close to my heart. Thank you guys. Godspeed. 

-Carla Camille-

are you living in past, present or future

 Tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Mt 6:34)

Many of us are burdened, if not caught up with our past. More than the consequences of our past actions, we let the memory of the past drag us down. We like to hit the rewind button in our memory and lick the wounds of long ago. We open up one painful memory and then a sudden flood of other unpleasant memories comes rushing in. And downward spiral we go.

We spend most of our time entertaining our bitterness, pains and disappointments of yesterday. We even spend countless hours just imagining the day we will get our vindication or even vengeance from past hurts. As we waste our time dwelling in our past, our present is wasted as well. And the sad thing is that our today is our tomorrow’s yesterday. Wasting the present now is just adding up to our wasted past. And the vicious cycle continues.

Many of us are also so anxious about our future. While our bodies reside in the present moment, our mind has time traveled years from now. We spend much time being worried and gloomy to things that has not happened yet. We are so absorbed in the “What Ifs” that we forget the “What’s now?”

Our present also affects our future very much. To have a better tomorrow is to have a better today. Our actions today will greatly affect our future, good or bad. To waste your time today being anxious about tomorrow is to waste the opportunity to improve your tomorrow.

To live life is to live in the present moment. The past is dead and the future is yet unborn. The key to healing the past and having a hopeful future lies to what you will decide to do NOW. Now is the only thing we really got. If you waste the present moment by dwelling in the past or being anxious about the future, you end up losing everything.

The past belongs to God’s mercy, the future to His Providence and the present to His Love. To live in the present moment is to accept and experience God’s love here and now.

Today is your tomorrow’s past.

The way you live today will make your tomorrow better or bitter.

Today is where you are.

Are you there?

  When the world says, "Give up," Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

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13 days...

17 years of existence i have faced a lot of obstacles and  problems that had taught me a lot of things and made me learn from my previous mistakes. I enjoy those things that i encounter as my life goes on. Be it good or bad, I know that all of these are part of life and I know that this is the reason why I'm bravely standing here. 

13 days from now, I'm already at my legal age. I'm not into the usual fabulous celebration of my 18th Birthday. All i want is to be with the people who loves me and the people I love the most, My family, Friends and my especial someone. Just simply go to church, eat with them and spend the whole day with them, for me that's the perfect celebration. I don't need a fabulous and gorgeous celebration just for it. My goals and dreams are more important for me than that. but if you'll gonna ask me what I want receive on my Birthday and if its not much to ask I really want a brand new luxury car of my own, a peaceful home, a multi-national company and someone like Nick Carter to be with me forever. HAHAHA. kidding aside, all i really want is a peaceful and happy life with my mom and brother. <3

why is this happening?

What is Child sexual abuse? Why is this happening?

I decided to write this topic on my blog because I heard much hearsay about Child abuse, Sexual Abuse and etc. I’m not one of those people who were abused but I’m concern with them.

Child abuse is doing something or failing to do something that results in harm to a child or puts a child at risk of harm. Child abuse can be physical, sexual or emotional. Neglect, or not providing for a child's needs, is also a form of abuse. Even on facebook, people united to put their favourite cartoon characters as their primary photos as a sign of awareness on child abuse.  Child sexual abuse is a form of child abuse in which an adult or older adolescent abuses a child for sexual stimulation.

Child abuse is a serious problem. Most abused children suffer greater emotional than physical damage. An abused child may become depressed. He/she may withdraw, think of suicide or become violent. An older child may use drugs or alcohol, try to run away or abuse others and some feel hopeless and the others are traumatized because of that many children/teens find it hard to trust and get along with other people.

I’ve talked to some people who experienced to be abuse; here are some of their statements...

I'm nervous all the time.'

'I feel like it's my fault.'

'I get angry at everyone'

'I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone'

'I get depressed like I can't be bothered with anything.'

'I have nightmares and can't sleep.'

'I feel like I'm not as good as other people.'

'I don't know what to do, I feel helpless.'

'Sometimes I feel like I want to hurt myself.'

'I just want to tune out and forget it. Sometimes I get pissed or stoned, but that only blocks it out for a while.'

Maybe you have felt like this or maybe you have a different reaction. Remember there's no right or wrong way to feel. Though I’m did not abuse it feels like I can relate to them. I’m not abused physically but I’ve experienced being cursed by one of my freaky not – so – close relative.